26th Joke - Laughable Truths [event: speak up! Level 4]

[xochipilli_cursed]

[[Aaron had been trying to get as much air as possible to clear his head.

Maybe he cleared it a bit too much.]]

[Phone call | Everyone]

This is Aaron Taylor.

I hear laughter when I sleep, it keeps me up at night.

I run so I am too tired to dream when I go to bed.

I think the laughter means bad things will happen to people around me. I don't even know how to tell though in a town like Mayfield.

I keep thinking it means I am not going to make it, that someone won't let me.

Comments

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

She seems to like having friends. If you love her you wont try to change her, you can accept her for who she is.

And I... well just running away. I mean if I was dead... I guess then that'd fix the problem too... I just don't think I would kill myself.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

I know that. If I wanted to try and change her I would have done so by now.

Maybe that's what you were hoping for subconsciously. Or maybe you just lost the will to live.

Everyone around you died and you ran away possibly seeking death.

Perhaps we aren't so different.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

But I am not willing to have more people die for me to go away. If it came
down to it, I'd just leave and find a nice quiet place to die in.

I'm not doing it because I hate myself... I don't want anyone else hurt.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

Of course.

[Does not believe you. Oh it would be so easy to make you hate yourself. So, so easy. ....ugh, no. He's not supposed to do that anymore.]

What did my sister tell you about me?

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

[[Unknowing.]]

She told me the general things you have done and what all happened back home. I didn't understand the reasoning but I know what terrible things you did to others.

Still, here you can be different if you tried.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

That must have been a very long talk.

.....if I 'tried'.

[Yup, Johan just laughed.]

It's a great deal more difficult then simply "trying".

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

It was...

...

I know, I'm just saying it's possible. Nothing here makes sense. We aren't who we are back home, that's for sure.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

....No. We really aren't.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

I was a kid about to give up on everyone and everything and now here I am working with others to fight back.

I'd like to see how you end up.

[[He hopes better.]]

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

Would you?

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I mean it might be a circumstance thing. In the right circumstances you might be a better person.

Maybe in the right circumstances I will too.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

Maybe.

I suppose we'll both have to wait and see.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

Yeah, we will.

Anyways... this was good. Thank you.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

Yes, I think it was.


...You're welcome.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

I will see you around.

[[Waves and heads off... feeling not as uneasy as he usually does after talking to Johan.]]