26th Joke - Laughable Truths [event: speak up! Level 4]

[xochipilli_cursed]

[[Aaron had been trying to get as much air as possible to clear his head.

Maybe he cleared it a bit too much.]]

[Phone call | Everyone]

This is Aaron Taylor.

I hear laughter when I sleep, it keeps me up at night.

I run so I am too tired to dream when I go to bed.

I think the laughter means bad things will happen to people around me. I don't even know how to tell though in a town like Mayfield.

I keep thinking it means I am not going to make it, that someone won't let me.

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[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

The monster inside of me. Losing my sister. Being shot.

Being in that orphanage again. Forgetting my sister. The monster.

My sister realizing that she would have a normal life if I was dead.

Lots of things.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

The monster?

[[He knew about what happened thanks to Nina. The monster things was beyond him.]]

She cares about you, and it scares me sometimes to think that might mean something about her too.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

...there's a monster inside her as well. She's just better at ignoring it.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

Oh...

[[Yeah, give him reason to avoid her. That's what he needs.]]

Why do you do it?

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

Do what?

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

Everything you do.

You cause death and ruin lives.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

Yes. I do.

Because there's a monster inside of me. I have no name. I am simply a nameless monster. The monster is always hungry and it won't leave me. No mater what I do the monster will stay with me. Inside me.

.....I wanted to kill myself. Because there was no other way to stop it. I'd go on destroying everything till there was nothing left.

So I planned to have myself killed. Only I wanted there to be no trace of me left in the entire world. I shouldn't exist. I should never have existed. I wanted to erase my past so it would be like I was never born.

So I began to kill everyone who had ever known me. Or I had them killed. Or I convinced them to kill themselves.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

[[Thankful for the phone being between them. He just kinda stares at it before speaking.]]

You'll still leave a mark... people would figure out they were all connected wouldn't they?

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

No. I travelled a great deal. From foster parents, to foster parents. I had a different name with each couple. All the evidence of them having a son at some point was destroyed.

The only reason anyone figured anything out was because Dr. Tenma was tracking me down and the police thought he was responsible for all my murderers and were trying to find him.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

I met Dr. Tenma...

What are you going to do now? It's not like you can do what you planned here.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

He's an amazing person.

I can't do what I planned back home either now. As for now.....I'll just try and stop hurting people for Anna.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

Well...

... wait, really? Just like that?

Do you think you can do that?

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

I don't know.

It would be easier if she hadn't forgiven me. Then I could just die.

But she has.

So I'll try to stop manipulating people and destroying them.

Because of her, and because there is a part of me that has been trying to stop the monster this entire time.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

If you're serious about this...

[[Aaron! No. Bad.]]

If you really mean it... then I'll help. Let me know what I can do and I'll do it.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

[.....]


Why would you want to help me?

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

Because I'm not good for much else.

Because I want people to like me here.

Because I keep telling myself, if I help the right people, maybe someone will make it out of here okay. I don't know who the right people are, though, so I don't really discriminate.

Because enough people have died due to me being born that maybe I owe it to someone while I am here.

Because if Anna thinks there may be hope for you, then I want to thikn there can be hope for you too.

Wow...

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

[Just hand him your secrets on a patter why don't you.]

....I'll give you some advice.

Don't tell people things like that. Especially if you know they have a habit of using peoples fears against them.

You're already an incredibly easy target.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

You mean like when I told you about the town trying to turn everyone against me and how I still wonder if people are just not commenting about it?

Wow... That was a mistake.

[[Aaron was already bad at this but... yeah.

He should probably hang up before something else comes to mind.]]

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

Yes exactly.

Which is why I told you my sister had talked to me about it. I just made that up so you would worry more.

[This is why honest and Johan do not mix.]

I may not be trying to manipulate you anymore but it would be foolish to think I'm the only one here who will try things like that.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

Really!?

... Yeah, I know there are dangerous people here.

It's just nice, you know? To get away from the bad back home for a short bit. It actually be able to get to know people without something bad happening because of you.

It might be bad here, but it's a different bad.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

Yes. It was clear she'd warned you about me so I couldn't just keep pretending to be your friend. So I just changed methods a little. It was rather ironic actually. If she hadn't warned you I don't think I would have gotten so interested in breaking you.

But then again you were friends with my sister and I'm jealous of everyone who she makes friends with, so I suppose it might have happened anyway.

What do you mean a different bad?

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

I guess I was basically set up to fail there wasn't I?

Though, why not try to be friends with them too?

This town is different than back home. Back home I had just decided to leave everything behind and live out on my own. Maybe hoping to avoid people all together.

Here, it's dangerous and terrible but we can work together sometimes. I can make friends.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid so.

I don't want friends. I just want her. I want it to be just the two of us like it used to be.

[Now that wasn't supposed to slip out.]

What would living on your own accomplish.

[pants-yourmove.livejournal.com]

Maybe you should try liking having friends. That way you can both be friends with people and stick together?

Instead of changing her that is.

[[Oh, yeah, that plan. See, Aaron has the smrtest plans.]]

Well, it would keep people from getting hurt because of me if that was what was going on.

Maybe I'd eventually figure out what exactly was going on too.

[hungry-monster.livejournal.com]

I don't need friends, I have her. She shouldn't need them either. She has me.

Or maybe you'd just get yourself killed. Did you have any other plan other then run away? Or were you trying to die?